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Hi! My name is Gianna, and my blog is here as a living journal of my experiences in Panamá. I hope it can also serve as a resource for anyone interested in Peace Corps life. ¡Gracias por leer pues!

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Fulbright VS. Peace Corps Q&A

¡Hola tod@s! I’m back with my friend Emma Jones who worked in Columbia as a Fulbright scholar while I lived in Panama as a PCV. Read about Emma’s travels, adventures, and book reviews on her blog “Emma Shut Up” at https://emmashutup.wordpress.com/!

My and Emma’s plan to meet up during Semana Santa was dashed by COVID-19, sadly. However, we decided to keep in touch and work on an essay together comparing her Fulbright experience with my time in the Peace Corps. We both lived in Latin-American countries (neighboring countries at that!) and worked in English-teaching environments, but we both had unique experiences on the job. If you’re thinking about applying to Fulbright or Peace Corps in the future or just are curious about how they compare, here are a series of questions that Emma and I have answered to help guide you!

Disclaimer: the experiences and opinions expressed in this essay reflect Emma’s and my personal experiences and do not speak for everyone who has ever been a part of the Fulbright or Peace Corps programs.

What, in a few words, is the purpose of Fulbright/Peace Corps?

Emma: The Fulbright Program’s mission is to “fund the promotion of international good will through the exchange of students in the fields of education, culture, and science.” Fulbrighters can be sent from the U.S. to another country, or vice versa, to study, conduct research, or teach English (or their native language in the U.S.). These scholarships fall under either the Student Program, for current students or young professionals, or the Scholar Program, for Ph.D. holders or established professionals. 

Gianna: The Peace Corps’ mission is to “promote world peace and friendship” through three goals: (1) to help the peoples of interested countries in meeting their need for trained men and women; (2) to help promote a better understanding of Americans on the part of the peoples served; and (3) to help promote a better understanding of other peoples on the part of Americans.

Emma leading conversational activities with university students
Gianna leading summer school classes to seventh graders

How much of a choice do you have in where you are sent to work?

Emma: With Fulbright, you apply to work or study in a certain country and only that country, no second choices or backups. (A friend of a friend was offered a grant in Brazil when she applied for Argentina and was rarely seen without a Portuguese textbook for the next several months, but I’ve only heard of that happening once.) If you do receive the Fulbright, you may be asked whether you would prefer a large or small city, large or small university, etc. Since you get to pick where you go, you need to have a compelling reason why you chose to apply to the country you did. “I like Italian food” isn’t going to cut it. In my application to Colombia, I talked a lot about my love for Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Colombia’s most famous author, and my interest in becoming a translator from Spanish.

Gianna: Up until about four years ago, Peace Corps applicants had little influence over where they would be stationed and what kind of position they would hold. Their future was left up to the Peace Corps to decide where they were “needed most.” The “send me anywhere” route is still available for applicants willing to serve anywhere in the world. However, now applicants have the option of applying to specific programs in the countries of their choice while also choosing three parts of the world (ex: Southeast Asia) as alternatives. This is the route I chose when I applied to the English Co-Teacher & Life Skills Facilitator position in the Education sector of Peace Corps Panama. I made this decision with my skills and experiences in mind as well as where I could see myself living for two years. With that said, I know several Returned Peace Corps Volunteers who chose “send me anywhere” had positive services in the countries and programs where they were placed. 

What is the application process like? 

Emma: Applying for the Fulbright requires you to do a lot of advance planning. To be an ETA, you need three recommendation letters, a personal statement, a statement of grant purpose (where you describe the kinds of activities you want to complete during the grant), and a campus interview with several different faculty who will ask you questions about why you want to work or study in the country you chose. You also may need a Foreign Language Evaluation, which describes your ability to speak the language of your host country. For a research or study grant, you need all this plus a letter of affiliation from the university you want to work with in the host country. Usually you will apply through an institution of higher learning you attend or attended in the past, and many campuses have earlier deadlines than the official Fulbright deadline. If you make it to semifinalist level, which means the US government is passing your application along to the host country’s government, you may have to complete some additional requirements. For me, that was a short interview in English and Spanish and a personality test. The materials necessary also depend on whether you are applying for an ETA grant, a research grant, or a study grant. If you’re a finalist, which means you are selected for a grant, you also have to undergo medical clearance. Some countries have an Alternate designation, which means you may be awarded a grant if someone drops out or there are more available spots than planned. The process takes as long as it takes – I changed the country I wanted a month before the application was due and started all over, which some would call application suicide. But I knew more than one Fulbright in Colombia who started the application only a few weeks before the deadline – and guess what? We all ended up in the same place. (I’m not endorsing what they did, though. Plan ahead.)

Gianna: The Peace Corps application process takes about a year. Because it is so lengthy and detailed, I recommend getting in contact with a Peace Corps recruiter to help guide you through the process; my recruiter helped me so much, and I’m still connected with her! The first step requires filling out the application form on the Peace Corps website which includes writing a mission statement, submitting a comprehensive resume, and three references. Once you submit this form, you will be invited for a Skype interview with someone from the hiring office. Sometime after the interview, you will receive a message inviting you to serve with the Peace Corps under a specific position and country program. You have three days to accept or decline the invitation. If your program requires a foreign language placement test, you will have a follow-up interview to determine your speaking level. The second half of the application process requires obtaining medical and legal clearance. In a nutshell, this means submitting proof that you are able and qualified to serve including but not limited to birth certificate, passport, dental scans, and blood tests. Once you are legally and medically cleared, you are officially invited to begin Peace Corps training. 

How long is the commitment? 

Emma: Most of the time, Fulbright will send you to teach or study in a country for eight to twelve months. For an ETA grant, it will likely be slightly less than twelve months, or the length of one school year – my tenure in Colombia would have been ten months, had it not been for this coronavirus business. A master’s grant might be a bit longer, depending on the program.

Gianna: Peace Corps Volunteers serve a total of 27 months in their country program. Three of these months are training which means the standard Peace Corps service is two years. Peace Corps Response positions are shorter (typically 8 to 12 months) and are attached to specialized projects. However, these opportunities are only open to Returned Peace Corps or professionals who have worked in related positions. 

Emma sightseeing in Bogota
Gianna’s host family walking after a rainy day

How were you trained?

Emma: I . . . wasn’t! This is only a slight exaggeration. Specific training is generally not required for ETAs, although many countries specify they want ETAs who have had some kind of teaching or tutoring experience. I was a tutor for three years in college and helped in English classes for a few months while studying abroad in Chile but had never really taught English as a foreign language. Starting next year, ETAs in Colombia will receive ESL training online the summer before they arrive, which I think is an excellent idea. If you end up in a country that doesn’t offer you training and you have questions about the best way to go about your job, do not ever be afraid to ask!

Gianna: All Peace Corps cohorts go through three months of pre-service training before they are officially sworn into the program and placed in their communities. During these three months, Peace Corps trainees travel back and forth between their host training communities and the country program’s office to receive a variety of training sessions related to their work. These sessions include administrative procedures, language and culture reinforcement, safety and security protocol, and medical information. In addition to these general sessions, trainees receive technical training specific to their sector. For example, I served in the Education sector of Peace Corps Panama which required me to complete formal training on co-planning and co-teaching lesson plans, the Panamanian education system, English teaching methodology, and critical skills development for children, youth, and adults. However, training for volunteers in the Agriculture, Health, and Environment sectors requires the development of different skills and is paired with different agencies within the same country. 

What kind of work were you doing? 

Emma: As an ETA in Colombia, I was placed at a university in Bogota and helping in English classes. I did not teach alone, but I usually led culture-centered activities in class and incorporated grammatical concepts. I also administered the speaking portion of English exams, which were a requirement to graduate from my university. Fulbright Colombia also requires you to have a social project for about 10 hours a week (as opposed to 20-30 for teaching). My project was writing for The City Paper of Bogota, an English-language newspaper in Bogota. 

Gianna: As an English Co-Teacher & Life Skills Facilitator, I was placed in a Panamanian community and school to promote English learning, dynamic teaching methodologies, and critical skills (leadership, women’s empowerment, college and career prep, safe sex, etc.) development for youth and adults. I co-taught or co-facilitated classes and seminars with Panamanian counterparts rather than leading alone. 

What was the hardest part?

Emma: I would say the most difficult part for me was navigating Colombian cultural norms in my workplace, especially regarding communication. Colombian work culture involves a lot of small talk; it’s considered very rude to walk into a room without greeting everyone and asking after them and their families. At my university, there were also a lot of work parties for birthdays and other occasions. I’m introverted by nature, and as a result, the constant pleasantries and work parties/gatherings exhausted me, whereas my coworkers thought me cold and impolite for not greeting them all when I walked in. After speaking with my boss, I realized much of this conflict was due to culture clashes, and I tried to interact more with my coworkers, which helped a lot. I also struggled with the Colombian “just go ask” mentality in regards to questions and proposals; I often had to speak to six different people to accomplish a task that could have been solved in the U.S. with an email. It took a while to get used to, but I’m glad to have had the experience; it helped me explain concepts of U.S. culture to my students more clearly because I could compare them to Colombian practices.

Gianna: The hardest part of my Peace Corps service was being the judge of my own work. Although I worked under the guidance of two program specialists and one program manager, my bosses were hours away in Panama City and were only available by phone call. I submitted reports about my projects every six months, and even on those I received little feedback. The Panamanian teachers and school staff I worked with did not formally evaluate my work, nor did the recipients of my classes and seminars. My fellow PCVs were there for advice and brainstorming, but they were all also working on their own projects without supervision. So, the only person who could keep my work accountable was me. I struggled with comparing the quality of my projects and my level of productivity to other PCVs’ and feeling confident that my work was actually helping my community. Though there were other hard parts of service like loneliness and cultural barriers, judging my own work was consistently the hardest. 

What was your favorite part? 

Emma: My favorite part of my grant was getting to live in Bogota, a city that constantly gets a bad rap from those who visit it because they compare it unfavorably to the cleaner, warmer, and overall more “tranquila” Medellin. I adore Medellin, but Bogota is second to none in terms of things to do: there are outdoor jazz concerts, nature reserves not far outside the city, gorgeous street art near downtown, museums, lots of small and inexpensive theaters. I also loved the food scene there; eating out is relatively cheap, and there are a lot of excellent small, family-owned restaurants in the neighborhood where I lived. I also joined a fantastic church and met wonderful friends there. 

Gianna: My favorite part of Peace Corps service was living in Panama. I know it probably sounds like an easy answer, but I truly loved the beauty of Panama. Before I applied to Peace Corps, I researched Panamanian geography, history, and culture. I was mesmerized by the colors and energy that characterized Panama’s beaches, mountains, jungles, festivals, music, and artisan crafts. Living in Panama gave me the opportunity to experience all of these things as a member of the community, rather than a tourist. Of course there were parts of Panama that I didn’t love. But overall, I was so honored to live there for my Peace Corps service. My advice to anyone applying to the Peace Corps, Fulbright, or any program abroad is to think about which parts of the world excite you and where you can see yourself thriving.

Emma enjoying a family-owned cafe in Bogota

Gianna at home with her host family

How were your expectations of your work different from the reality of your work?

Emma: Since I had little experience in teaching English as a foreign language and mentioned in my statement of grant purpose that I would enjoy doing creative writing and literature-related lessons with my students, I assumed I would be placed with students who had a higher, or at least intermediate, English level. This was not the case at all. Most of my students had a beginning level of English, and a few were intermediate. The few we had that might be considered “advanced” often did not take English classes because they cost extra, preferring instead to go right into taking the qualifying exam. As a result, I had to incorporate many more teaching-style methodologies than I anticipated, as opposed to just activity leading. I also rarely saw the same students more than twice a month, as my university wanted me and my fellow ETA to visit as many English classes as possible. I wanted to get to know my students better and had begun to host English clubs outside of class, such as a comics reading/writing club in English. Unfortunately, the coronavirus nipped that in the bud. 

Gianna: The Peace Corps has a reputation of placing volunteers in remote, poverty-stricken villages to do work that will “save lives.” Although this is the case for some volunteers, including volunteers in Panama, it was not my experience. The community I lived in is part of a district that is populated by 6,000+ individuals. My home had electricity and running water. Some people in the community have cars and televisions. The provincial capital (location of cafes and grocery stores) was only an hour away for me by bus. Although my work in education and youth development was meaningful, it did not even come close to saving anyone’s life. I really did not expect these “Posh Corps” luxuries. On the other hand, I was not prepared for the anticipated “tough” aspects of Peace Corps life either. I adapted to showering in a closet-sized latrine, being without power and cell signal several times during the week due to harsh weather, and working in a school system that lacked my American standards of productivity and organization. My Peace Corps experience did match some of the expectations I made based on others’ experiences, but in most ways I had to adapt to circumstances that were completely unique to my service. 

What is the probability I will be granted a position?

Emma: Depends on the country and year. For English Teaching Assistantships to Colombia in the year 2019, the acceptance rate was a little over 20 percent. Some countries offer a lot more grants than others, and that’s also a factor. For example, the acceptance rate for Italy is usually around 10 percent, but they only offer 10-15 ETA grants per year. Colombia offers about 80. Remember, you need to have a compelling reason to apply to the country you choose, so apply to the country you really want to be in, not the one that has the highest acceptance rate. 

Gianna: According to its website, the Peace Corps received more than 17,000 applications for fewer than 4,000 positions last year. I was one of 20 invited out of 200 applicants for the TELLS (Teaching English, Leadership, and Life Skills) position in Panama. I’ve heard that connecting with a recruiter and/or choosing the “send me anywhere” option increases the chances that you will be invited. 

Do you plan to apply for Fulbright/Peace Corps again? Can you apply again?

Emma: Once you receive a specific Fulbright grant, you can never apply for that grant again. Usually, I wouldn’t be able to apply for an ETA grant again, but Fulbright made an exception for my cohort because of the coronavirus. You can, however, receive an ETA grant and then a research grant three or more years later. I’ve met someone who has done this, and for the same country both times, so it is possible! I’ve been playing with the idea of applying for a research grant.

Gianna: Under normal circumstances, Peace Corps volunteers have multiple options for staying involved after their two-year service is complete: re-apply to Peace Corps in a different country, extend their service in the same country as a program coordinator, or apply to a Peace Corps Response position in the same or a different country. Peace Corps Headquarters is currently working on a plan to reinstate or re-enroll volunteers who were evacuated due to the pandemic. I would love to return to complete my last year of service in my community. However, the Peace Corps’ plan may not overlap with my wishes, so I am looking into other opportunities.

A last piece before the plane

Peace Corps Evacuation

Cans.

That’s all that I can think about right now. The small pile of coke cans sitting in the corner of my Panama home kitchen. I was planning on saving up more and giving them to my host sister, a senior in high school, so she could contribute to the school’s annual aluminum can fundraiser. Last year, she brought in the most cans of her class and was crowned reina de las latas of the 11th grade during the parade that followed the fundraiser. This year, I wanted to help her win again.

But my time in Panama is trickling away, like the last bit of sand in an hourglass. Along with all other Peace Corps posts across the world, Panama is releasing volunteers to evacuate back to the United States in response to the COVID-19 crisis. In a few hours, I’ll be leaving my community for Panama City to fly home to comply with the evacuation process.

The first mention of evacuation crashed into me like a wave of devastation and regret. I couldn’t imagine not completing my second, and what would be most productive, year of Peace Corps service. After more talk of evacuation and more time to ruminate on the reality of leaving Panama, it has remained just as devastating.

I try to think of the positives of leaving Panama: a treasured year of memories in a country I now consider home, returning to my friends and family who I very much miss, and a better chance of safety and security under the developing circumstances of the Coronavirus pandemic.

But really, this sucks.

It sucks, and I can’t feel in my heart I’ll ever truly recover from the loss of not completing my Peace Corps service if I’m not able to return this year. I’ll miss my community and the opportunity to finalize all the new projects I had been starting up with my counterparts. I’ll miss the friends and families who welcomed into their hearts and homes. I’ll miss my Panama house, which has been the first place I’ve called “home” outside of my family’s house in Hanover. And I can’t even begin to describe how much I’ll miss my fellow volunteers; they have become some of my best friends. Needless to say, I’m not at all ready to say goodbye to the people who helped me make it through this year.

Through the ups and downs of emotion, productivity, and focus, I have remained a dedicated, enthusiastic Peace Corps volunteer. All I’ve ever wanted was to continue my service. Now that my time is cut short, I feel unfulfilled and regretful of not taking more time in my first year to do more.

I’m hurting, and I’m not even making the most of this hurt. My heart is breaking. All I can do is remind myself of the good memories and the hope that I’ll return soon.

To my Peace Corps family, I love you. Thank you for reading. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for growing and sharing with me. We will meet again ❤️

Nos vemos pues

Big summer blog-out

Summer time and the living’s pritty 🏖

Yoo hoo! Big summer blog-out 💁🏼‍♀️ It’s been a while since my last update. And that is because I’ve been busy, busy, busy. The months of January and February are summer vacation (yes, summer – the dry season llegué) for Panamanian schools. But that doesn’t mean this volunteer has had any rest since the holidays!

One thing I got the chance to do over break from school was make a video about my first year in site. I hope you enjoy watching it as much as I enjoyed making it ☺️

Now, without further delay, here are some of the events from this summer that made it so memorable:

Future pioneers of sustainable development

My first job since returning from vacation was to help facilitate a series of leadership seminars in Veraguas. The seminars were prepared under the direction of PCV Matt who lives on the campus of the National Institute of Agriculture. The recipients of these seminars were students who came from all over Panama to study agriculture at this institution. Along with other TELLs volunteers, I lead topics about sustainability, SMART goals, and the personal circles of concern and influence each person has to impact the changes they want to see in the world. At times, I felt my Spanish level was too low to express these deep topics. However, it was rewarding to lead questions for this group of teens and listen to what they had to say about the future of their world.

Minor surgery in Panama City

Post-surgery selfie 🤳

Earlier last year, I noticed some lumps in my right arm. I didn’t think anything of it until my family visited in December and encouraged me to see the Peace Corps doctor. The PCMO informed me I had some harmless cysts and needed to get minor surgery in a private hospital in the city. Navigating medical paperwork and appointments in Spanish and in a big, intimidating city was not the way I imagined ringing in the new year. However, I learned so much about the Panama city public transportation system as well as how to manage future medical appointments in the city (but, knock on wood, there will be none). I even got some yummy Korean and Indian food with my friend from Bocas del Toro who also was in the city on medical. That kind of treat is impossible to find in Coclé! But, overall, being in the city made me appreciate my community even more. There’s no place like home en el campo.

Seriously, who would want to leave this place?

Universidad tecnológica English classes

The past several weeks, Chanel and I have helped out with English courses at the Tech College in Penonomé. Specifically, we bring English conversation topics to the classroom so the students can practice speaking in groups. These classes are comprised of students with different ages and levels, which has tested our lesson-planning and leading abilities. We always need to have extra activities in our arsenal in case the lesson we’d planned is too simple or too complicated for the group. Conversation activities are always rewarding for me because I love hearing students use new vocabulary, argue their opinions, and ask complicated questions.

Medical gira

A traveling medical team of professionals and students provided free eye, ear, and dental treatment over a week in January. Although I only attended for a few hours one day of the medical tour, I got to put my translating skills to the test. As patients from all over the area (some even from my site!) arrived for care, I checked them in by translating a form asking for their basic information, medical history, and primary health complaints. I also spent a while supporting the ocular experts by administering basic vision exams (you know, the one with the big E?). Although I didn’t spend significant time at the medical gira, it felt rewarding to use my Spanish in a way that directly helped others.

Feria de naranja 🍊

Every year, the community of Churuquita Grande hosts la feria de la naranja in which all the communities in the surrounding mountains sell their produce, especially piles and piles of the sweetest oranges you can imagine. My community was one of many to set up a cabaña full of fresh fruits and vegetables to market to the hundreds of patrons who visited the fair. For four days, the booths stayed active as well as the center stage for traditional dance performances. I was reminded of the Jefferson County fair, smelling the fried food stands and walking through the dusty fields that lay some – ahem- vintage mechanical rides. The rural community felt during the fair was another indication of the universality of campo culture.

Summer school programs in site

During the first two weeks of February, I had the opportunity to support the gabinete (counseling department) with two summer programs: dynamic learning sessions with the incoming 1st graders and middle school orientation with the incoming 7th graders. Over my first year in my community, the gabinete has been my favorite entity to work with in the school. Consisting of the school psychologist and school social worker, the gabinete provides counseling for students, teachers, and parents. It is rare that a school in an area as rural and distant from the city has a gabinete; most schools with counseling departments are urban and well-resourced. However, because our school is located in the most active part of the district and enrolls students from so many different neighboring communities, it qualifies for social work and psychological services. When the two women of the gabinete asked me to work during their summer programs, I was more than happy to help.

Roslyn (left) the school psychologist and Ana (right) the school social worker
Making snacks for the 7th graders during the movie party! We watched Harry Potter y la piedra filosofíal

During these two weeks, I helped Roslyn provide activities and games that reviewed basic concepts for the 1st graders such as colors, numbers, dexterity, and memory. These activities were designed to evaluate the development of each student as the enter primary school. The majority of the time, however, I helped Ana with her middle school orientation program as well as taught English classes to the new 7th graders. Over the course of these programs, I learned so much about my teaching abilities as well as how to work more efficiently with my school counterparts. The last day left me exhausted but confident about the start of the new school year.

Carnavales

After two months full of hard work, it was time to enjoy Carnavales. The Carnavales are celebrated for four days ending the night before Ash Wednesday. The festivities include the coronation of queens from Calle Arriba and Calle Abajo, culeco trucks spraying water at all passersby in the streets, bands and troupes that follow the queens on their elegant floats, and dancing for days. Just like every country that celebrates Carnavales, each city in Panama has its own special traditions and festivities. However, the city of Las Tablas in the province of Los Santos is famous for hosting the biggest Carnaval celebrations in the country. I’m grateful to have been able to travel with a group of my friends to enjoy all of what Las Tablas had to offer this year. We got soaked by culecos all morning and stayed out dancing all night. After recovering from Carnavales, I realized how much I appreciate the lengths Panamanians will go to throw an epic party. Culturally, festivals and celebrations hold significant importance in this country as well as all of Latin America. It is just one more reason to be happy to have spent a whole year living abroad.

I did more these past couple months than I can share in this post, including a few fun summer camps lead by other PCVs, but there you have it; a summer full of work and play. The new school year begins this Monday. I am ready to dive into new projects and learning opportunities. May the energy that carried me through my first year of Peace Corps service follow me into my second and last ✌️

…and to the kiddos who remind me why I am here…
..and to memories I’ll always treasure ❤️

New year reflections

Looking back on a year’s worth of blogging

Hi folks! I skipped on writing a blog post for December, but I had a great month celebrating the holidays with my school and community.

I also spent a nice weekend away in Cerro Punta with other volunteers for the annual Holiday Party!

And, of course, I spent Christmas with my family here! Spending time with my mom, dad, and sister in my community and relaxing with them on the beach was the best way to close off my first year in Panama.

At the big waterfall near my house!
Feliz navidad 🎄
Saying ✌️ out to the beach!

Now it’s January 2020, the start of a new year and a new decade. Last year around this time, I posted my first entry on Piece of Panamá titled “Why Peace Corps.” In this post, I look back at a year of blogging and the biggest changes I’ve faced since being away from home.

Challenges

Being away from my family and friends has obviously been hard. I think this is universal for all PCVs. For 23 years, I lived at home with my family of four and we did everything together. Learning to be on my own and not have my family’s immediate love has hurt, but also helped me grow.

Like my family, I always made time for the friends I’d known throughout childhood, too. They have always been family to me as well. Leaving for Peace Corps meant skipping on of my best friend’s wedding, missing out on another best friend’s daughter growing up, and ending an almost 3-year relationship with someone I’d considered a best friend for a decade. These losses still pain me even though I know these people love me and are parts of my life forever.

An additional loss that hit right when I moved to my community was of my dog Woody, my pet of almost 12 years. It hurts still knowing that I couldn’t be there to say goodbye to him and won’t see him when I visit home.

I knew part of why I wanted to leave for Panama was to become more independent away from the home I’ve always known. It’s not been easy, but I am learning about my abilities and goals the more time I spend on my own.

Rewards

It’s hard to see it fully now, but I think in years to come, I will look back at my time in Panama as some of the best years of my life. Why? Well, what I can attest now is that I love being a part of a community. My site is rural, but active, which reminds me of my hometown. I love being able to work with a lot of different Panamanian professionals while also being friends with so many families in this welcoming place.

Before I applied, I knew from the start that I wanted to serve my time in the Peace Corps in a Latin-American/Carribean country. So, I’m lucky that I was accepted into Panama’s program. Learning Spanish and being accepted into a warm and creative culture has all been such a blessing to me as a volunteer. Even on my hard days, I always remind myself that my community in Panama has been everything I wanted and more. I owe mi gente so much for guiding and loving me through all the obstacles and learning experiences.

Sobrinas 🤗🌹
Much love to the host fam ❤️

I also appreciate the creative freedom I have in my school. Sometimes it feels like I don’t have a set role in the classroom, but that is also a good thing because I am allowed and encouraged to do a variety of projects.

Not having a strict schedule also lets me work with other institutions around Panama, so I’ve had the opportunity to travel to and work in lots of unique places. Overall, I am lucky to work in an environment that promotes growth and engagement.

“Why Peace Corps?” one year later

A throwback to Pre-Service Training

Re-reading my first blog post from January 2019, I realize how few of the worries I had actually came to fruition during my time in Panama thus far. I was worried about making friends, feeling qualified, and knowing what’s next. Flash-forward to today and I have a great circle of PCVs to count on as friends, some of whom I’ve been with since Pre-Service Training.

Yay for nights out in Panama City with friends ✨

I feel like a have a handle on my work in and out of the community. And as far as “what’s next”… Well, I know now with confidence that anything could be next. I’ve already spent a year diving into challenges and growth. Whatever I decide to pursue after Peace Corps (whether it be work, grad school, or another opportunity outside of the United States), I will do it with all the strength and wisdom I’ve soaked up in Panama.

Feliz año nuevo 🥂

Nos vemos noviembre

Month Seven

El amanecer de mi casa

Between a month of national holidays and rainy season reaching its peak, November was slow. I spent more days than I would have liked to just sitting in my house listening to the rain pour down on the roof. It just felt like an off month (thanks Mercury Retrograde) and that made me lonely, homesick, and bored.

It’s really easy to get bogged down by stress and forget that I’m here to learn. So, I really want to savor and treasure the times that lift me from this type of gloom and teach me something new. They remind me that more life-changing discoveries will come if I am open to them.

I’m trying to savor every moment that I bare witness, whether it’s a barracho falling asleep on my shoulder on the bus ride home, a teen father snuggling his baby at her first birthday party, or an ancient, shoeless woman I’ve never met crossing me and giving me blessings for the day’s journey.

November was not my best month. But I’m keeping my head up! 😁

Día de separación de Colombia

Panamá celebrated its 116th year of separation from Columbia this November 1st, beginning el mes de patria (patronage month). My community marked this day with an acto cívico at the school followed by un gran disfile up and down the street.

Walking with my friend Kelly, I was surrounded by school staff and community members during the parade. Everyone came together to show some Panamanian pride 🇵🇦

The días de patria continued on into the week. While there were plenty of parades and celebrations across the country, not much went down in our parts after this one parade… other than pouring rain. So, without school and community activities, I got bored fast. I hiked out to a birthday party in Palmilla and spent time playing and drawing with my host sobrinos. But other than that, I just stayed shut in my home. I baked a lot of goodies to share with my neighbors (and eat by myself) and planned out project ideas for the next fifteen months.

Admire this birthday decor 💕
Baking is a great pastime, especially si quieres engordar 🍪

During all the solitude, I felt…off. Well, okay, I honestly felt depressed. The time without school was hard on me because it allowed me to fall into some negative, chaotic thoughts. All I could think about was how much I missed home with the holidays and my 1-year mark approaching. My mind rewound insecurities about the impact I was having or not having on mi gente. I didn’t want to leave the house or even get out of bed some days, which made no sense considering how BORED I felt. This bubble of depression trapped me for several days, keeping me from exploring my surroundings as I desired.

When school picked back up again, I started to feel better. Still, I’m anticipating for the depression to return during the structure-less months of summer vacation (December – February). So, my goal is to pack in as much community and university work as possible during those months to stay active. There’s a lot I can do outside of my school to start off my next year in Panamá.

Final Profe English Class

After ten or so days of no classes during los días de patria, I returned to the school to slap together my final Profe English class.

Do your homework! 👩🏼‍🏫

The last class went about as well as I expected. Five or so participants showed up and completed their oral exams. I shared cupcakes and parting words. I also asked for comments about the class from these participants as well as others who’d long ago stopped attending the class. Though I appreciated the enthusiasm and support from everyone who gave feedback, I’m not sure if I’ll offer this class again next year. It just didn’t seem to garner much interest after the first few sessions. But I learned that the end result is not everything. It’s better to examine the process and appreciate who you engage with along the way. Overall, I am proud to say that I wrapped up my first big Peace Corps project!

Orientadora Benita snapping a selfie from class

Familias Fuertes with the counseling department

Working outside of the English classroom always rejuvenates my spirit for service. So, I was happy when the school social worker and counselor asked me to help organize the final ceremony for their social program Familias Fuertes.

Con niños fuertes 💙

The program gathered at-risk students and their families from communities all over the area to recieve counseling from Coclé social workers. Over the course of the past seven weeks, the program provided resources and activities for families to improve their relationships at home, work, and school. The two-hour sessions split parents from children for the first hour and then brought them back together for the last hour to work on family projects together. This final ceremony celebrated how the families had bonded over the sessions and what they learned about each other during the program.

The counselor Roslyn has been one of my favorite people to work with at school.

Thanksgiving with 11B

Another fun and unexpected event from November was a Thanksgiving feast provided by the 11th grade class.

Comíamos un almuerzo muy rico 😋

Zaida, the English teacher for 11th and 12th grade sitting next to me in the picture, invited me to join the students as they prepared a traditional Thanksgiving meal. The students presented on traditional customs in the U.S. for their final presentation. I was asked to speak as well, so I gave thanks to a great school and a great first year. Then we all shared a giant meal of arroz, frijoles, tamales, ensalada de papas, pollo asado, pastel, jugo, y fruta. I loved being included and having another chance to interact with the high schoolers.

A yéyé Thanksgiving day

Día de independencia de España

Our little mountain town was louder and brighter than ever this November 28th. Thanksgiving in the U.S., this day was also Panama’s independence day from Spain.

I marched along with the teachers and school band up and down the hills, listening to the drum line and watching the club folclórico dance. Fourteen other school bands, including some I’ve worked with in the past, from nearby towns visited to perform in the parade this day. Watching them gave me nostalgia for my own marching band memories and also gratitude for being included in el día de independencia.

Coclé Friendsgiving

This year, I celebrated Thanksgiving with other volunteers from my province. Around 20 of us spent the day at the Regional Leader’s house in Penonomé for cooking and sharing food – turkey, mashed potatoes, cranberry sauce, rolls, pie, and other traditonal dishes. I made fruit salad, which has never been the star of Thanksgiving but was a contribution nonetheless.

I don’t have any pictures from this event, but I wanted to share how our province came together to celebrate an American holiday together. It’s just nice being able to gather away from our communities and even further away from our families in the states to create new traditions.

~ Y ya…. ~

Looking back on this month, it taught me a lot about what I need to do to look out for myself and my goals. I spent a lot of time feeling depressed and not wanting to leave the house. But once I finally did get up and walk around and talk to people in my community, I remembered how lucky I am to be here with this life. Not everyone gets the opportunity to live their dream; I do. So, while it’s important to slow down and let myself be sad once in a while, it’s even more important to do the things that get me out of my sadness – which are exactly the things I came here to do: help others and learn from them.

It’s always nice to be recognized 🤝
Enseño algo, pero aprendo mucho más 💕

That’s it for November! I am eagerly awaiting December which will bring more national celebrations, a Peace Corps Panamá holiday gathering, and a visit from my family! ❤️ Nos vemos pues ❤️

¡Oujee! octubre

Month Six

Views from the hammock 🌴
Happy as ever to be in this neighborhood ☀🍃

After the high of moving out of my host family’s house settled down, I began to look ahead in my Peace Corps service and consider the things that still have yet to come. My posts rarely touch on the challenges, but there are still occasions when I feel out of my comfort zone and unsure of my potential. It isn’t easy to express the pain and doubt I’ve experienced over the past eight months in Panamá. I prefer to share my successes and positive experiences over the hard times.

The tough times sneak up on you, just like scorpians in the kitchen do

Sin embargo, in this post and future posts, I will try to express the bad as well as the good. Because Peace Corps life is hard and, more than anything, unpredictable.

Without further ranting, here are some highlights from October. ¡Oujee!

Toro Guapo in Anton

All month, I’d been anxiously waiting to travel to a beach in Chiriquí province for an Ultimate Without Borders Frisbee training camp. However, because I’ve been experiencing knee sensitivity recently, I reluctantly dropped out. Though I was bummed to miss out on a weekend of Frisbee and sportsmanship training with other volunteers, I had the pleasure of attending El Toro Guapo (The Handsome Bull) cultural festival in Anton that same weekend.

I arrived in the morning, hitting the calles with Chanel to sample street food and artesanía (artisan crafts). I splurged on a sombrero pintado (painted hat), a very traditional, handwoven accessory in Panamá.

Con un sombrero pintado, me siento Coclésana 👒

During the afternoon, Chanel and I watched dance performances. Youth groups from all over Coclé and nearby provinces showed up to perform Típico, Cumbia, Congo, and other popular styles. As big fans of dance AND culture, Chanel and I watched and applauded these groups with the most enthusiasm of anyone in the crowd.

Later that evening, we stopped by a friend of Chanel’s in the neighborhood who was having a gathering on the front porch. We talked, danced, and enjoyed the company of the small party.

While it wasn’t a tradegy that I had to miss out on UWB training, it did leave me with a lil FOMO. However, my awesome weekend in Anton proved to me that when one door closes, another door opens. And in Panamá, the door is always wide open in wait for the next celebration.

Chicas guapas disfruten Toro Guapo 👭👒

Profe English Class continued

De enseñar los verbos 👩🏼‍🏫

To be honest, I wasn’t passionate about the idea of starting an adults English class compared to lots of other youth activities I had in mind. However, when the directora asked me to open up a beginner’s course for the teachers and administration, I took it as an opportunity to strengthen and prove my abilities in the classroom. As I mentioned in my last blog, we started the class with about 18 participants. Lately, that number has decreased to about six solid returners. For reasons too varied and boring to explain now, attendance has become an issue for our Profe English Class. It can be discouraging to know that I’m preparing activities and resources for a group that seems to be shrinking by the week.

One day, I thought about canceling the class just because I was fed up with the lack of interest it had been receiving. Despite this urge, I knew I should show up and give the lesson on “States of being” anyway. Though only 5 members came to class that day, each participant gave their best effort and really focused on pronunciation and memorization of the terms we learned. They followed my directions (a miracle when you really think about it… What do education professionals owe to a 24-year-old who’s not employed by the school?) and showed gratitude for the class challenges. I knew I made the right decision by sticking through class, and now I feel even more confident about my relationships within this tiny group.

Sports terminology with 5th grade

Okay, time for a BIG confession: I have no idea what I’m doing in the primary school. I show up each day and offer different activities and practices to the two primary teachers I work with. My goal has always been to co-teach and co-plan with these teachers. However, on most occasions, I’m either left sitting in the back of the classroom acting as a teacher’s aide or running the whole lesson while the teachers catch up on work, text, or take a break from the classroom. On one hand, I feel like I’m not experienced or confident enough to provide the co-teaching, co-planning tools that the teachers expected from me. On the other hand, I get frustrated with my counterparts in the primary school because they don’t seem to want to plan or to work together, only separately. Either way, I feel like I’m failing Peace Corps collaborative mission between American volunteers and Host Country professionals.

Entonces

Now that I got that off my chest, I will share a teaching highlight from October. When I was asked for help with teaching sports vocabulary to 5th grade, I decided to lead the classes in learning lyrics the song “Basketball” by Bow Wow (formerly known as Lil Bow Wow) from the 2002 movie “Like Mike.”

We danced, sang, and clapped while learning the lyrics. I snuck in some grammar workshops and sports charades during these weeks as well. The fifth grade kids (about 60 in total) still come to me to impress me with their sports terminology knowledge and memory of the song. So, do I know what I’m doing? No. But that doesn’t mean I’m not having fun doing it! And that it is not doing something 🏀🎶

Días de la escuela primaria

Values & goals workshop with 11th and 12th grades

After spending a couple hours with tiny children each day, helping them put on their shoes and encouraging them not to stand on the desks por favor, I’ve never been more ready to work with colegio (high school) students. While I do love the primaria kids, teens are a population I’ve always wanted to work with.

However, as I’ve said before, the directora asked me to not work with the teenagers and just work with grades preK-6th. Despite this, I’ve been edging my way into the high school English classrooms where the students and teachers so far have been appreciating my presence. However, I’m not only interested in supporting with English classes, but also youth empowerment and life skills as well! So, my first project in the high school was a life skills workshop I designed (or Frankenstein-ed, if you will) and called Guía de tu vida. The workshop consisted of two sessions: considering personal values and setting life goals based on those values.

I facilitated this workshop to all the eleventh and twelfth graders, totalling around 100 students. There were about 22-27 students per class, so I was a little nervous about addressing four large groups of teens who have seen me around school but didn’t really know me. Because it was my first project, I decided to use it as a practice for the LLS (Leadership & Life Skills) side of my position as well as an opportunity to get to know the students of the high school better. Each session had its ups and downs, but for the most part I think the teens enjoyed thinking about their values and goals. The students especially enjoyed my follow-up session when I asked them more questions about the statistics of the session (i.e., why do you think Friendship, Responsibility, and Happiness are such common values among your age group?) and to create some posters representing the values and dreams of all the students who participated.

Their árbol guía (guiding tree), featuring three “dream leaves” per student, turned out beautifully and will be displayed in the 12th grade classroom for the rest of the year.

Regional Meeting

G82 & G84 TELLS 📚❤️

October ended with my cohort’s second RM (regional meeting). For my province of Coclé, that meant that all 43 of us across sectors (Education, Health, and Agricultural) united in the lovely El Valle, my friend Adam’s site as well as a popular tourist destination in the province. The new G85 SAS and WASH volunteers experienced their first RM this time, so we all did our best to welcome them into our tribe of “Locosanos.” This RM brought thought-provoking info sessions, cool valley weather, two new inspiring regional leaders, and just a grand old time with province friends old and new. We G84 TELLSers also had the opportunity to send off our predecessors, G82 TELLS, with words of encouragement as they prepare to COS (close of service) in six months.

Yes, RM was a blast. However, a sadness loomed over me those days with the knowledge that one Coclésano was not with us; a friend, who I will keep anonymous for respect to their privacy, had to leave Peace Corps Panamá abruptly earlier this month for reasons out of their control. This person was very inspiring to me as a fellow volunteer. I boasted to other PCVs about how well-integrated this person was in their community and how many impactful, collaborative projects they’d started. They were also someone well-respected by the Peace Corps community as a creative, responsible PCV who contributed a lot to the organization itself. Peace Corps Panamá will miss them, as will I.

I didn’t realize how hard missing one volunteer would hit me. But now I know why it did: Peace Corps volunteers are family. In a job and lifestyle that attracts loneliness like a magnet, the confidence and comfort of fellow volunteers is undeniably what keeps us putting our best feet forward in our communities. Like family, we disagree and cause drama. We have miscommunication, gossip, and tension. However, the love and admiration shared between PCVs is something special that I don’t think could exist in any other line of work.

When I’m struggling, dreaming, or trying to connect with a power greater than that within me, I know all other volunteers understand what I’m experiencing. We’re pasear-ing through this journey together. I try to remember these times with everyone before they’re over.

Peace Corps Coclésanos 🕊️👒

Nos vemos en noviembre… Thank you for reading everyone. Mercury Retrograde is hitting me hard! Writing down my feelings (even though this is just the tip of the iceberg) has been cathartic and fufilling for me. This blog is just as much for me as anyone out there reading it. One more time, thank you and Oujeeeeeeeee!

Overcoming fears is a daily routine 💅🏼🐍

Saludos de septiembre

Month Five

My host family visited and brought me dinner last night to welcome me to my new home ❤️ my heart is overflowing!

After I returned from In-Service Training, a lot of things began to fall into place. My English teacher counterpart Elizabeth started requesting me for more help with her 5th grade classes; the gabinete (counseling department) met with me to collaborate on ideas for social work, summer school, and youth empowerment programs; my English teacher counterpart Zaida and I met to discuss how I can better support the teens in English and leadership projects; my first real project, a beginner’s English conversation course for the teachers and administration at my school, took off; and I moved into my own house, which is something I’ve been anxious to do for about three months.

Now it’s practically October 🎃🍂☕

But in Panamá, autumn doesn’t happen. Rain is picking up, but no distinct changes in climate or weather have established a new season as this time of year does at home.

However, September was still full of changes for me. It felt like a new beginning, the way it feels when the leaves start to change colors and the college students return to campus in Hanover. This blog is dedicated to these turning points and surprises.

Peace Corps Cribs

La casa anaranjada arriba la loma🧡
No closet? No curtains? Este es la solución

Moving out was honestly a kind of bittersweet experience. Even though I’ve been craving my own space, somewhere where I won’t have to worry about running into a host brother-in-law on my towel-clad trek to the latrine or stressing out my host mom with my inconsistent eating habits, I knew deep in my heart how much I would miss my host family and the warmth I received from them every day.

One Saturday earlier this month, I found the only muchacho in town who owns a truck, Javier (also a bus driver for Chiguirí Arriba), and paid him to take me to Penonomé and help me transport a sofa-bed, mini-fridge, and stove back to our home in the mountains. Once I had these things in place, I met my new next-door-neighbor Eliecer who helped me rig up some borrowed electricity from his home since my home itself has none installed. My campesino landlord Señor Gumercino (who is a farmer in a community lejito de aca called Palmilla) tells me that an electrician is coming soon. He also said we’d meet to discuss the rent weeks ago… Vamos a ver.

What also welcomed me to the house was a turantula on the wall and a bat in the latrine. After sharing this with my cohort peeps, they decided that it was time for me to move out. Luckily, Eliecer was there to save the day and banish the critters from my home. Eliecer has been helpful and supportive in many other ways so far, such as watching over some belongings I once left outside overnight to make sure no street hustlers climbed my fence to nab them. He’s just one example of how Chiguirí Arrib-ians, and Panamánians in general, are always looking out for their gente, even when it’s Gina la gringa.

Moving my small belongings, like my books and clothes, was also a group effort. A group of boys and from the high school, Ángel, Kevin, and Noel offered a hand after seeing me walk down the unpaved road towards the center of town carrying all my bags. Once we’d dropped everything off, Kevin said to me “welcome to the house!” in perfect English. Wao! It was another example of how caring and sincere the people of this community are, right down to the jóvenes.

Of course, I still had some small things left in the house on my last evening with my host family. I asked for my host sister Carmen and host sobrinos Yariela and Ariel Antonio for help. However, as we set off with arms full, we heard a shrill, shrieking cry coming from the house. Natalie, my three-year-old host niece, was upset that I was leaving and wanted to help carry things with the big kids. After much hassle, I handed Natalie one of my empty water jugs and we set off once again with one additional member of the moving team.

We walked down the hill towards town as Natalie’s little stubby legs kept enthusiastically with our pace. On the way, Carmen and I talked about how things were going in school, considering I’d recently started assisting Teacher Zaida with the 11th (Carmen’s grade) and 12th graders’ English classes. Carmen said that she would like to have more of a presence from me in her classes, mentioning that when other outside programs come to assist the high schoolers they’re more often shaming than supportive. I remembered back to my first day at the school when the principal told me not to work with the high school because the students were lazy and unmotivated.

This sentiment has been echoed time and time again by teachers and older members of the community and it’s become one of my biggest pet peeves. Because, truly, there are some amazingly talented, inspired students here in the high school. However, because the community itself is more conservative and tranquilo, the students show their intelligence in creative, introverted ways rather than raising their hands and speaking out their thoughts. I told Carmen that together we could work on ideas for projects, whether they be English-related or phys ed or arts or workshops or whatever, and do more to support and celebrate the jóvenes how they deserve.

After everything was set inside the house, I hugged Carmen and my host sobrinos goodbye, telling them to please join me for baking cookies and watching soccer games in Villa Tavidal Arriba whenever they’d like. The next day or so, I cleaned, organized, and decorated my little house on the hill. It’s still a work in progress, but I’m loving every minute of fixing up my home.

Cuando la hamaca está en lugar, la casa es un hogar
Looking forward to more soccer games in Villa Tavida Arriba ⚽

Profe English Class at Pablo Alzamora Vargas

In the midst of moving, the first solo project I’ve started in my community is an afternoon English class for the teachers and administration at my school. We meet once a week and cover basic conversation topics through dinámicas and group work. So far, we’ve covered greetings/farewells, numbers, the verb “to be,” professions, and emotions. From what I’ve observed, the teachers are enjoying the class which not only allows them to practice English but also take a break from teaching themselves. I equally have been enjoying my time with this group and getting to know the Pablo Alzamora Vargas faculty a little better.

Lesson 2: “to be” & emotions✨
Good job teachers! 👏

Readers Theater in Aguadulce

Over twenty primary schools around Coclé competed in the third annual Readers Theater competition taking place at PCV Bridget’s school in Aguadulce

The first Friday back after IST was the provincial Readers Theater competition in Aguadulce. My Bremen Town Musicians from Escuela Membrillo competed against nineteen other schools. It was fun to watch all these schools perform their scripts on stage and show off their English skills. It was equally entertaining to witness all of the TELLS PCVs silently recite their schools’ script along with the students during their moment on stage, seeming like proud teachers or parents. I hope to return to Escuela Membrillo and work with students and teachers there on other projects.

I was so proud of these kids and their excellent English skills! 🐎🐈🐕🐓

Tu Vida in Nata

PCV Zulema, a volunteer who’s been in Panamá for over a year now, asked for help with her youth empowerment workshop Tu Vida in her community Nata. Nata is a big town, similar to Chanel’s community of Anton, and Zulema works in the primary school there. She decided to offer Tu Vida, a workshop covering themes such as bullying, consent, and self-esteem, to her outgoing sixth grade students before they transitioned into the secondary school. Along with PCV Matt, I helped Zulema facilitate the workshop’s themes and objectives through different activities. I particularly liked guiding the “self-esteem tree” in which every student writes down things that like about themselves to create a representation of everyone’s skills, values, and interests.

Celebration of the foundation of Chiguirí Arriba

Last week marked the founding of my community Chiguirí Arriba. The school celebrated with the typical activities: a reinado (or coronation), traditional dance performances, and lots of food.

The day of the celebration I had a meeting with the junta comunal, the local government representatives for the corregimiento. So, I didn’t have much time to attend the festivities but managed to peep in on some of the dance performances of the folclore club.

And now…

La vida de chiva con Joanna 💁🏼‍♀️💁🏿‍♀️

I have a lot more to look forward to! Youth workshops, university programs, Ultimate Frisbee training, and more all are written down in my agenda. I’m busier than ever and happy to be so.

On the first night spent in my new home, I was brushing my teeth, looking around at my disorganized belongings and rigged up electric outlets when suddenly I started crying. The full weight of my Peace Corps experience hit me in that moment. I realized that never before in my life had I felt this independent. I’ve never held this much creative power over my personal and professional life. I’ve never been exposed to so many enchanting perspectives, both in my Peace Corps and Panamánian communities. And I’ve never felt love for an experience like I have for Peace Corps Panamá and the town of Chiguirí Arriba.

October’s motto: all smiles, no slumps 🤗💜
Nunca cansada de estas vistas 💚
Todos dicen “Chiguiríííí” 😁❤️

Keep it spooky in the states for me, yall! 🎃👻🦇🕸😱

Volcánda forever

In-Service Training

It’s been about a week since my cohort and I left Volcán, the town that hosted us for our second week of In-Service Training. Chilly and lively, Volcán is home to PCV Lesley who graciously welcomed us into her beautiful site in the province of Chiriquí. She arranged for us to stay with some of the teachers at her school, and we paired up into families with each other for the week. My friend Morgan was my roommate for the week, and we stayed with the sweet and accommodating Directora Ana and her nephew Jorge. Ana has no children of her own but raised Jorge for all his seventeen years. Jorge was also very sweet as well as excited to have some gringas staying in his home. Morgan and I especially appreciated Jorge’s determination to find English subtitles for his dubbed copy of Black Panther as well as his random desire to have a vaquero-themed photoshoot on our last night in Volcán.

Directora Ana on the other hand was a little anxious to have gringas in her house only for fear that we would be uncomfortable or not like her food. I did my best to dismiss these fears for her by letting her know how luxurious her home was and how well she cooked. Throughout the week, Ana made sure Morgan and I were prepared for all of our activities and travels. On the morning we left to return back to our sites, I casually mentioned that my eye had been bothering me due to an allergic reaction. Alarmed, Ana told me that I must use some natural medicine. She ran outside and returned with two sage leaves. “Put them inside your bra,” she directed me, both through vocal directions and gestures, “You will inhale the sage and it will help heal your eye.” Not seeing any reason to dismiss this suggestion, I did as she told. I couldn’t help but laugh once I was changing back at home and saw two shriveled leaves fall from my shirt. My eye did feel better though! Who knows…

Though the two of us worked hard every day and returned home exhausted every night of training, Morgan and I came to appreciate the warmth and entertainment our host family extended to us during our stay.

La familia Murgas
Chomba, one of the family’s three horses greeting us and looking for breakfast 🐴

During training, I had the opportunity to reunite and work with some of my favorite people: the volunteers of my cohort, G84 TELLS. I was surprised at how happy I felt to be back in training-mode, surrounded and inspired by my friends. We shared stories, both positive and negative, from our past four months in-site, as well as enjoyed the break away from our community responsibilities. 

I also was refreshed and reenergized by the support from our sector team, Krystie, Hu, and Johanna. It was great to finally meet Johanna, our sector manager, in person. She, along with Krystie and Hu, had been helping me navigate conversations and steps forward with my landlord’s family for the previous month. Thanks to her help, I should be moving into my own place by the end of September!

Under the sector team’s guidance as well as help from some well-seasoned TELLS volunteers from older cohorts, my fellow G84ers (also referred to as the Honey Monsters…listen, it’s a convoluted, cornflake thing) and I received and facilitated a variety of Teaching English, Leadership, and Life Skills workshops including the following:

Mentoring sessions

Johanna invited a group of university students from David to participate in a mentoring session facilitated by us PCVs. However, very few students actually showed up, so we ended up mostly just pairing off into PCV partners for the activity. Despite the low attendance, I found this session very useful in establishing relationships, sharing interests, and sharing professional goals and dreams in a formal mentoring setting. With the support of the secondary English teachers and school counseling department, I plan to adapt this session into a workshop for the senior high school students at Pablo Alzamora Vargas.

Tu Vida day camp

Tu Vida is a Peace Corps-designed day camp for 4th-6th graders. The two-day camp offers sessions on healthy decisions, bullying, breaking stereotypes, and values. I’m excited to have the opportunity to assist PCV Zulema with her own Tu Vida in a couple of weeks.

Over the two Tu Vida mornings, I facilitated these themes alongside Kaylee and Hanna. Again, for this activity, we had very low attendance. We expected 10-15 participants per group but ended up with around 5 kids each. This was understandable considering all public schools in Panama were on vacation between trimesters and most students spent this time with their families. However, Hanna, Kaylee, and I cherished our participants who we came to realize were creative, thoughtful, and brave individuals. We were proud of ourselves for teaching such complex themes, especially racial/gender stereotypes, to these young participants. And we loved watching them get crafty for the last activity: designing a group flag for the Tu Vida closing ceremony.

Elige Tu Vida introduction

Under the guidance of PCV David, PCRV (Peace Corps Response Volunteer) Eliana, and Eliana’s counterpart Particia, our cohort split off into small groups to practice sessions from the Peace Corps workshop Elige Tu Vida. Like Tu Vida, ETV focuses on goals, decisions, and values. However, it is designed for teenagers and also includes a 2-hour session covering sexual and reproductive health. I partnered with Patricia to reenact a short skit about two teens asking their older siblings questions about sex. I played the part of the hermanita while Patrica played my hermana mayor. Other volunteers filled in the roles and facilitated a condom demonstration during the skit. As a result, the skit demonstrates the kinds of questions, preoccupations, and misconceptions young teens have about sex and what they need to know to be safe and comfortable in making decisions regarding sex. In addition to the skit, other groups facilitated sessions on STDs and sex myths as these topics have been covered in ETV. This activity helped me feel more prepared to assist with ETVs and sexual health charlas.

Thanks Hermana Patricia for helping me feel prepared to make (or not make) healthy sexual choices!

LDGE/Teacher training at UNACHI

One of my favorite parts of training was the time we spent at the UNACHI university in David, the provincial capital of Chiriquí. Before training, we all had a choice to facilitate a teaching methodology workshop or a leadership workshop during our time at UNACHI. Along with five of my compañeros, I participated in the leadership workshop LDGE (Leadership Development for Global Education). Over the course of two days, our LDGE facilitators and participants covered topics such as leadership styles, values, goals, what challenges us to do the right thing, and societal expectations for the next educated generation. I felt totally in my element while sharing stories about my own challenges and successes and encouraging the participants to do the same. The UNACHI students that participated in the teaching methodologies and LDGE workshops thanked us PCVs during a closing ceremony, involving song and dance performances. It was a great way to close off training and re-energize our minds for projects back at site.

Towards the end of training, we also had the opportunity to present a little bit about our communities to our fellow volunteers and bosses. These presentations reflected the diversity of Panamá; Danielle talked about her experiences working in a small indigenous reservation community without cell signal or electricity. Kasey shared some stories about working in a university setting in Santiago, one of the most up-and-coming cities in Panama with a population of over 40,000. And I spoke about Chiguirí Arriba, explaining that while it appears to be a quiet mountain community it is also building an industry in eco and agro-tourism.

I realized while listening to these stories and reflecting on my own that Panamá is really our home now. Before this week, I felt unsure about whether not I really belonged in Panama. Now I am confident that, while it’s still under construction, I have a place here. I have a home. I have projects and people who want to see me succeed. I never felt that I would see anywhere else but Hanover, Indiana as my home. But after leaving Volcán and returning to Chiguirí Arriba, my heart rested knowing I was back in my own mountains.

And, while it’s great to be back home, training made me realize how much more of Panamá, as well as the Peace Corps experience, I have yet to explore. I thank Peace Corps for giving me this journey, pushing me to carve my own path and build a life of my own in my community. And I thank IST in Volcán for providing the fresh air and company I needed to realize these things.

Host family despedida
Volcánda forever 👐

Hasta agosto

Month Four

Peace Corps life brings pain, but it teaches joy 💕

This time around, I’m writing to celebrate some pretty big milestones while also acknowledging the many miles I must go. This month, I celebrated not only my 24th birthday but also my sixth month in Panamá. It’s crazy to think that half a year ago, I got on a plane to embrace a new, unknown journey and leave my old, comfortable life behind.

During this time, I’ve learned a ton of Spanish (I am certainly not fluent, but I can confidently call myself “bilingual” now), navigated cultural and geographical challenges, and refined my Teaching English, Leadership, and Life Skills training on several different platforms. I understand that there is plenty more to learn, prepare, and accomplish, but at least I’ve built up the endurance to keep going.

Without a cleverer segue, here are…

Five experiences from this month:

Acquiring a taste for Panamanian dishes

While I’m still living with my host family, I’ve taken an interest in how they prepare traditional Panamanian food. My host mom is the head chef of the fam, but on special occasions, everyone (including my host dad, four of my six host sisters, and three of my host brothers-in-law) chips in with the preparation of tamales, arroz con pollo (think chicken-fried rice), ensalada ferria (think potato salad with beets), nance (I cannot even explain this one right now, it needs its own little summary, but my PCV friends know what’s up), sancocho (think chicken soup, but with boiled plantano and yuca) and bollo (think tamales without anything in them – or, like, raw cornbread?).

Over time, I’ve grown appreciative not only for the process of making such dishes (usually they involve cooking with big ceramic pots over the fire or grinding corn with a mechanical, hand-held appliance) but also the taste. I never thought I’d get used to the corn-and-rice heavy Panamanian diet, but what can I say, it’s grown on me. I especially enjoy bollo, which my host mom flavors with salt, cinnamon, and coconut. It’s actually pretty yummy as a breakfast! And I prefer it to hot dogs and fried corn patties, which are very common eats in my household.

I am eager to return to a plant-based diet. Not being able to sustain a vegetarian/vegan lifestyle for six months has also been…grueling. Yeah folks, just because I am in a tropical area with bananas, avocados, coconuts, mangos, and oranges as far as the eye can see, it does NOT mean I’m living in some yeye Whole Foods! Oftentimes, it feels more like living in the processed meat section of Dollar General, as my PCV friend artfully put it. But, I’m trying to enjoy the homecooked food while I can, even when it’s chicken feet or Spam. My host mom Denia does her best with what foods she can obtain in the community tiendita and often ends up transforming the most unappealing dish a surprising culinary delight. It’s one of her many domestic talents that does not go unappreciated or overlooked by me!

Additionally, it’s become a pastime for me to visit abuelas around the community and enjoy some homemade treats while listening to stories about their kids and grandkids who live far away. Check out this yummy mamallena (think bread pudding) prepared by Tía Paula! I had to walk 30 minutes to a whole ‘nother community to visit her, but the conversation and brindis were worth the hike.

Tía Paula is as sweet as her homemade mamallena

Using games to teach vocabulary

Something I doubt about myself often is my ability to teach. I do not have a teaching degree, and I respect educators so much and do not ever see myself matching their level of expertise without one. So, rather than leading lessons, I have been testing out educational games and dinámicas (icebreakers) during classes. Between college peer advising and PST, I am confident in my ability to get any audience to dejar la pena.

I use silly songs, competitive games, and group work to compliment my counterparts’ lesson plans and vocab themes (ex: parts of the body, healthy habits, colors, parts of the house). Sometimes, I practice these activities at home with my host sobrinos before trying them out in classes. It’s been a lot of fun, and I love seeing mis amigitos queridos smile and laugh while learning. At times I think teaching the colors and parts of the body through games isn’t a big deal, and that I’m not really helping much. But it’s a start!

A visit to Anton

Most of my cohort friends have had the ability to move into their own homes. This is awesome for many reasons – more space, independence, and chances to cook whatever food their American stomachs desire. A week or so after she moved in, Chanel invited Madee and me to stay the night with her in her community of Anton. Anton is an “urban” site and has lots going on – parks, clothing stores, bakeries, markets, cafes, churches, bars, and even a pizza place operated by an Italian immigrant chef!

It was refreshing to visit another town and also to hang out with my friends at one of their homes. We baked cookies, watched RuPaul’s Drag Race, and stayed up past 10 pm. It was one of the first weekends that felt “normal” to me; back in the states, this is how I would spend a free weekend. Now that I’ve had a couple fun visits with friends in their permanent communities, I’m looking forward to the day when I can host them in mine and we can enjoy Chiguirí Arriba together.

ASP: Day of Dreams & Final Class

As mentioned in my June post, I’ve been spending Friday afternoons working with an afterschool English program for high schoolers in Penonomé, the provincial city capital of Coclé. Usually Myra runs class as she is the leader of the program this year. However, I helped take over the last couple of classes as Myra was unable to attend. For the second to last Friday, Chanel and I developed a lesson plan taking elements from the Peace Corps life-skill program Elige Tu Vida and the widely used SMART Goal business strategy model.

During the class, we split the teens into smaller groups to talk about their goals and dreams. One student named Aiden mentioned that he wanted to become a cardiovascular surgeon in the future. I called him “Dr. Aiden” and compared him to Dr. Yang from Grey’s Anatomy. He recognized the reference and we bonded over being Grey’s fans. This was just one example of how I’ve connected with the ASP kids over pop culture, planning for the future, and learning a different language. Chanel and I closed the class with some board games designed to promote conversation skills. These got the students joking and sharing interests – all in English!

Once the day was done, Chanel and I felt proud of ourselves and how we successfully facilitated a session that was relevant to both TE (Teaching English) and LLS (Leadership & Life Skills).

The following Friday, Chanel, Adam, and I returned to ASP for the final day of class. It was more of a fiesta than a normal class – we had snacks, played games, and shared stories with the students. The supervisor Profe Nelson also encouraged the students to extend words of appreciation to us Peace Corps peeps. Several students stood up to formally thank us, in English. A lot of them mentioned that they looked forward to these Fridays, knowing the PCVs would bring positive energy and fun to an otherwise challenging afterschool class. One girl mentioned that she had dreams to become a teacher and was inspired by our efforts. She praised us for leaving our homes and families to take on our challenging roles. It was humbling to be recognized.

We received mugs and chocolates as a thank you from ASP ¡Que chevere!

Another boy asked what did we really think of them (the students)? Of course, I had to tell them that I loved them all. I truly appreciate these students, not only for the energy, enthusiasm, and intelligence but also for their willingness to work towards their futures at such young ages. I told them that being around them reminded me of my own high school days. I said that I loved seeing them all have fun together like I used to with my friends when we were their ages (around 7 or 8 years ago…oof). The day ended with group photos and selfies for social media. After taking a picture with him, Aiden told me he wishes that I will think of him whenever I watch our favorite doctor show. “I will see you on Grey’s Season 17, Dr. Aiden,” I said.

Peace Corps ❤️s ASP!

Panic! At the parade & a dark (literally) dance competition

All throughout the country, schools and communities celebrated the 500th anniversary of Old Panamá. Panamá Vieja, the colonial part of Panamá City, is considered the birthplace of the country which would eventually branch into ten provinces and five comarcas (indigenous reservations). As typical of cultural celebrations, my school celebrated the anniversary by hosting a parade one day and a dance competition between provincial schools on the following day. Think Panama has had enough fiestas yet? Apparently, November and December are so full of holidays that kids just stop showing up at school! Vamos a ver…

On the day of the parade, I was asked by my host sister Itza to ride in the “float” (decorated truck) with my youngest host sister Carmen. Because Carmen brought in the most smashed cans during a fundraiser (long story), she won the title of queen of the 11th grade for the day. While I was uncomfortable with the idea of riding in the parade float with Carmen and the 11th-grade king, I graciously accepted Itza’s (who was riding in the passenger seat of the truck) offer. As the parade started up, I knew I should have declined the ride; everyone in the streets was staring up at me and wondering out loud what the heck a gringa was doing up there. The teachers and administrative staff walked alongside the floats, giving me the side-eye. It was nerve-wracking to be on display, especially when Carmen should have been spotlighted, not me. As the parade continued, Carmen’s friends walked closely behind, cheering for their class representantes. During a brief stop as the parade halted for traffic, I reached my hand out and offered all of Carmen’s friends my place on the truck. I was anxious to relieve myself of the unwanted and undeserved attention. I continued the rest of the parade on foot, walking with my host mom, dad, older sister Melitza, and sobrinos. It was chill for a moment, and I started to ease up and enjoy the parade. However, when the trucks began to turn around and head back to the school, all hell broke loose.

A kindergartener fell off one of the floats, significantly hurting her head and mouth. Some of the moms in the crowd, including my sister Melitza, ran through the streets in hysterics, trying to find an empty car to bring the hurt little girl to the hospital in Penonome. All while this was going down, the drivers honked their horns, children popped balloons, and teenagers whooped and hollered, unbeknown to the accident that had occurred. By this point, we were all still about a 40-minute walk from the school and taking up the entire road so that there was no way for a car to efficiently rescue the hurt little girl and get her to the nearest hospital (at least an hour’s drive away). During the chaos, it began pouring rain, so much that you could barely see ten feet ahead of you. The rain raged on through the rest of the day, putting a damper on the remainder of the parade (as if the hurt child already had not)

For those of you worried, I asked some teachers about the girl; she is healing and being monitored during PE class, but overall safe and well!

The parade begins 🎉
A “float” that I thought was muy chevere
Walking with the crowd of spectators

The next morning, the electricity had gone out in the entire community. This isn’t a particularly unusual occurrence, but it happened to be the day of the big folk-dance competition that the school had been preparing to host for weeks. Although there was no light, the custodians at the school hooked up an electric generator so that the school’s dance club and competing teams could perform to the musica tipicia. I spent the day watching the teams perform in the dim rancho (outdoor auditorium) and chatting up a few teachers and administrators whom I hadn’t had the opportunity to get to know much. Naturalmente, the rain returned and raged on throughout the afternoon. But the party lasted well into the day. When it comes to cultural celebrations, Panamanians are resilient to every force of nature and will keep dancing through it all.

Students dressed in ropa típica
Second from the left: my host nephew Ariel Antonio
Third from the left: my youngest host sister Carmen
My counterpart Elizabeth, coordinator of the folk club at school, posed with the school’s reina del dia and other performers

Five things coming up:

In-service training

This week begins IST: a two-week training session for my Peace Corps cohort. I’m excited to see all my cohort friends, especially the ones who live in faraway provinces. I’m not looking forward to returning to a rigorous schedule of training and traveling, but it will be a nice chance to catch up with old friends and reset my mind for the remainder of this year of service.

I’m stoked to be reunited with these guys for another round of Peace Corps training

Professor English class

When I return to my community, I’m hitting the ground running with my first “real” project: a beginner’s English conversation course for the teachers and administrators at my school. I’m nervous about leading this ten-week program but also excited for the chance to get my feet wet in facilitating personal projects. And it’s going to be a good opportunity to get to know my counterparts at the school and build those relationships further.

Helping with Chanel’s Elige Tu Vida project

As much fun as I’ve had working with TE (Teaching English) related programs, I’m eager to engage in more LLS (Leadership & Life Skills) activities. An upcoming opportunity to do so is Chanel’s ETV (Elige Tu Vida) project. Together along with a host of other PCVs from various sectors and provinces, we will facilitate a 4-hour future-planning program for high schoolers. The first two-hour half will be dedicated to making positive decisions towards career planning and higher education while the remaining half will be dedicated to sexual health. This project will be an excellent opportunity to refine my LLS skills as well as my Spanish alongside other PCVs.

Readers Theater Competition

Over the past month, I’ve traveled to another school outside my community to assist with a province-wide competition called “Reader’s Theater.” Judged on pronunciation, tone of voice, and vocal theatrics, a selected team of students will perform an English recitation of “The Bremen Town Musicians,” a three-minute tale following the adventures of aging farm animals who are leaving their owners to make it big on the music scene. It’s a fun time, and the teachers have been very receptive to my help. I think these kids have a chance at winning or at least placing high amongst teams from other schools, all performing their own stories. !Vamos Escuela Membrillo!

My Bremen town musicians 🤗😍

Summer programs with the psychology department

Some of my absolute favorite people I’ve met in Panamá are the school counselor Roslyn and social worker Ana. Not only are they passionate about helping the students advance academically and socially, they are also overwhelming encouraging of my participation in their department. This school vacation (beginning in December), these two women, collectively referred to as the gabinete, will host two summer programs, one to refresh primary students of their studies and another to guide 7th graders into secundaria and the social changes that come with the transition. They’ve asked me for my help and support in developing and executing these programs, both from a TE and LLS perspective, with the possibility of incorporating some fitness or arts activities. I’m excited to see how these programs can positively impact the community’s children as well as to work with my counterparts in the gabinete!

Before signing off…

I would like to decompress a little about a very consuming situation that’s been happening on and off this month. I was supposed to be able to move out into my own home right after my SECNA presentation. However, the house I plan to live in was not ready at that time (by Peace Corps safety standards) and the landlord’s family had just suffered a family emergency a few days earlier. So, my move-out date has been delayed with no solid date established. During the time that I’ve remained in my host family’s house, I’ve battled feelings of guilt, impatience, and helplessness over my living situation. I’m eager to move out and begin a life of my own – one in which I can cook, host friends, organize projects, and live independently. However, my biggest desire to move out is to allow my host family to return to their normal lives. For four months, they’ve given me my own room, while they crowd multiple family members into a small space and put fold up beds outside for visitors. They’ve given me meals, water, and electricity – all of which are not free. I continue to pay them the standard living stipend, clean, and buy small items for everyone to use. But I’m more concerned with the space I’m taking up than the costs or labor. I want to give back to my family, but I am not in a place to do anything other than take.

Despite this desperation to begin living on my own, I’m trying to remain patient with my landlord’s family – they are helping me, however long it takes them to prepare and heal from their recent loss. Also, I’m continuing to support and connect with my host family in any way that I can in the meantime.

After many heart-to-heart talks with my host family, community members, and Peace Corps staff, the more I’ve come to realize that I am not a burden on anyone, as much as it may feel that way sometimes. For example, yes, my host siblings share one room with their parents, but that is a cultural norm for this particular community and their trend of large, closely-knit families. I am not barging in with my American standards of personal space; rather, my host family recognizes and respects why I need my own room and have given it to me with patience, understanding, and kindness. In so many ways, I am happy to be with my host family and feel like a part of their home. And I know I will miss living with them after I move, so I’m trying to stay present.

Wasn’t there something else?

Oh, yeah! My birthday…

The day before my birthday, I spent a fun Saturday afternoon with Chanel and Madee in Aguadulce, a city near Madee’s site. It was another fun and “normal” weekend full of little treats: trying a new coffee shop, thrift shopping at ropa americana stores, and lunch at a fancy restaurant. Madee and Chanel surprised me with a special brownie sundae, which I devoured along with four homemade cinnamon rolls (thanks Chanel!) and a big slice of chocolate cake (thanks Madee!) before the day was out.

I spent the night with Madee at her new house, leaving for home the following afternoon on the day of my actual birthday. Madee and I spent the morning having tea, listening to music, and talking through all the most challenging and rewarding experiences we’ve had so far – in Peace Corps and life overall. After a few weeks without seeing Madee, it was simeltanously soothing and inspiring to divulge stories, confessions, and realizations about pain and growth. I left later than planned, and though the travel back to Chiguirí Arriba took almost four hours and required some patience in waiting on busses, I was delighted by an interaction I shared on the first bus from Capellnia to Aguadulce.

Stepping onto the bus and waving goodbye to Madee, I immediately became nervous about the long, unaccompanied trip back to my site. The bus was empty other than the driver and one other passenger, a middle-aged woman who was also on her way home. The two struck up a conversation with me, asking if I was helping at the school and where I was from in the states. I found it surprisingly comfortable to talk to the two of them and began sharing stories about college, Peace Corps, and Chiguirí Arriba. As she departed the bus, the other passenger complimented my Spanish, gratuitously calling me “fluent,” and said it was nice to talk to me. As I neared my stop, I began pulling out change for the ride. But the driver stopped me – “you’re doing a great job for our country,” he said, “this ride is free.” I tried to pay, but he insisted. I thanked him for his support, emphasizing how welcoming and friendly Panamanians had been to me so far and how fortunate I felt to work in this country. He gave me a firm handshake and sent me off to find a bus to Penonomé. On the second bus, I realized that the bus driver from Capenilla had given me a birthday gift – and he had no idea.

When I finally arrived to my host family’s house around 7 pm, I was greeted with by my host sobrinos yelling “Gianna!” as soon as I emerged from the pathway. My host sisters Meliza, Itza, and Carmen, as well as my host mom Denia were also sitting outside when I got back, and the group of them sang “Feliz Cumpleaños” to me. They gave me hugs and kisses on the cheek, warming my heart and soul even more after a day full of touching surprises. I thanked them for their love and told them that even though it was hard to be away from my home today, I was so lucky and grateful to be with their family. Later, I got to call my family and recieved another “Happy Birthday” serenade. Despite the typical weak cell connection that cut in and out thoroughout the call, it was so special to hear my family’s voices and catch up with each other. I went to bed feeling truly blessed, happy to be where I am in life despite the pain and challenges.

And this is where I am…

After six months in Panamá and twenty-four years on earth.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes! And thanks for the continued support. Amongst political corruption and global warming, you’ve kept up with my little piece of Panamá for sixth months. I couldn’t be more grateful and humbled ❤️🌺

24 is off to a sweet start 😋🍨

Just a SECNA

Month Three

With my host niece Yariela who preformed during Escuela Pablo Alzamora Vargas’ 95th school anniversary

As a TELLS (Teaching English, Leadership, & Life Skills) PCV, my first and biggest assignment so far has been SECNA: Site Entry & Community Needs Assessment. This site entry assignment has two parts: a written report (in English, for the Peace Corps office) and presentation (in Spanish, for any interested community members as well as a Peace Corps representative). Together, the report and presentation are intended to share information about the community’s history, important places, social groups, activities, and overall culture. They also serve as a platform to showcase ideas for Peace Corps projects based on perceived strengths, areas for growth, and opportunities for collaboration in the community. I spent the first three months of my Peace Corps service researching the multiple facets of Chiguirí Arriba for this assignment.

During my research, I got to meet new people and visit cool places like this waterfall, Villa Tavida

All TELLS volunteers recieve the site entry assignment as an opportunity to share their unique volunteer experience. Some TELLS volunteers live in comarcas, indigenous reservations with no running water or electricity, teaching children whose parents may never have even achieved fluency in Spanish. Other TELLS volunteers work six days a week at universities in busy cities with bastante amenities but very little leisure time. I’m somewhat in the middle, working in a well-resourced, rural community in the mountains. My community entry assignment reflected the collaborative, neighborly aspects of Chiguirí Arriba as well as it’s many cultural activities.

A site map I drew, featuring other communities and nearby places to Chiguirí Arriba

The day of my community entry presentation, I was nervous but excited to share my ideas with a mixed audience: my Peace Corps supervisor, parents of students, friends, my host mom, primary school teachers, and administration. My goal was to create a fun and interactive meeting, not just stand and lecture for 30 minutes.

During my presentation, I used ice breakers and interactive media to keep a pulse on my audience’s interest

I also wanted to make it personal; I added in some slides with pictures and stories from my home in Hanover, too.

Oh, and I baked about 50 banana muffins at the regional leader’s house the day before the presentation to make sure there were enough brindis to go around.

Para ver, here are the project proposals from my community entry assignment:

LLS (Leadership & Life Skills) projects

  • ¡Tu vida! – a workshop for students grades 4-6 focused on positive decision making and healthy choices
  • Elige tu vida – a workshop for students grades 8-12 focused on future goals and sexual health
  • Construye tu futuro – a workshop for students 11-12 focused on navigating future work and/or study options

TE (Teaching English) projects

  • English teacher training retreat – a fun, laid-back workshop for English teachers of all grades and TELLS volunteers to share co-teaching strategies and different methodologies
  • English course for teachers – a 10-week conversation course for Pablo Alzamora teachers held after classes
  • English course for parents – a summer program for parents of the community who want to learn English to help their children with homework
  • English & arts camp – a 5-day summer program for grades 4-6 focused on facilitating descriptive English skills and promoting creativity through various art activities
I was so happy for the good turnout, positive feedback, and compliments on the brindis I made!

Overall, I feel confident about how the presentation went. I was especially grateful for the good attendance considering it was the day before the school’s 95th-anniversary celebration and all the teachers were running around trying to prepare for the festivities. Here are a few pictures from the anniversary which I had the pleasure of attending the next afternoon:

While I’m happy to have completed my community entry report and presentation, I still have a lot to learn from mi gente and about my potential as a volunteer. Will my perspective of Chiguirí Arriba change over time? Absolutely. Will 100% of my projects work out successfully? Probably not. However, after working for about three months on this assignment, I feel proud of my community and ready to learn more.

I’m honored to be a guest in the community and for the opportunity to get to know these students personally

Up next, check back with me in August as I move into my first house (!), turn twenty-four years old (!!) and pasear my sixth month in Panamá (!!!). Good, busy, transformative times are ahead.

Hasta agosto 🌺